silver lined-cloud 9…

salam,

love is a 4 letter word for emotional blackmail
.kami.

t8 cr!

salad days…

salam,

im already sleepy actually.so,this will be short.

…today,i went down memory lane.back when i was still living in taman shahab,alor setar.oh,how good those times were.teddy bears all over.haha~nuri nursery nearby my primary school,sk st nicholas convent.where are u guys now my dear childhood friends?its almost 2 decades now.id like to hear from all of u.we got a lot of catching up to do.oh,and back then,there was only 1 shopping mall in alor star and it was CITY POINT:

• my 1st teddy bear is from d toy department yg kecik je tu.XP
• i once did a show there when i was 6 kot.music school ny performance.no, i didnt play d piNano,but we did some kind of dance in yellow shirts n red caps n shorts.mcm bendera selangor cuma time tu kcik,xtau lagi.haha~
• my 2nd teddy from here jgk kot.my 3rd too come to think of it.dan byk lg.hehe~XP
• my watches are all bought here until i moved to penang.excluding yg mama bw blk from d states.all casio.abang yg ajaq.haha~n do u guys remember my pink baby-g i used to wear masa form 1?yg berkelip2 itu.haha~
• bought a lot of ‘KIKO’ here too.shopping baju raya mst kt sini ms skolah rendah.but after that, its either KL or penang or sg petani.hehe~
• oh,ada kedai yg jual accessories kt ground floor tu.apa ek nm kedai tu.xigt dh.da dekat pintu kluaq ke state library.skrg ada  lg x?
• shopping kasut bata kat sini everytime nk buka sekolah.lamanya x kapuq kasut skolah.started wearing black pumps in form 1.hoho~tp ms skolah menengah pegi bata kt depan star parade lak.
• nk beli hadiah birthday kat mak uda pon mst mai sini gk.August 8th.hehe~
• pinggan mangkuk periuk senduk utk dapuq, mama beli kt sini gk kot.before ada kedai uncle kang sblh kedai bata dpn star parade.haha~
• btw,escalator da sempit.just muat 2 org berdiri sebelah2.they keep em until now.xpnh jmpk escalator tu kt tmpt len.haha~

tp skrg dh byk mall baru.latest i heard,ada tesco.area mergong kot.tapi ada satu lg hypermarket yg tetap di hati smpai skrg wlpn dh lama xdak/closed, PASARAYA PELADANG.haha~dan tentunya benda aq paling suka from kedai ini ialah dadihnya yg sgt sedddaaappppp…

XD

t8 cr!

emotionally, im losing it…

salam,

EVENT : REMEDIAL MDE HIS

HARI : JUMAAT

TARIKH : 17 JULAI 2009

TEMPAT : A53

MASA : 730 am

700 am

im all dressed up n ready to go for my xm.but then,i know it’ll start late.facebook la kejap.715 btolak.

713 am

mimi : nad, xm kt mn? (sambil berjalan dgn sgt laju.kalut ke xm hall kot)

nnz : a53

mimi : oke.sorry.

nnz : no prob

but mimi didnt know im still facebooking n blog surfing at home.hehe~

720 am

oh,dh lmbt.tp smpt je pon.went out.singgah kedai runcit beli susu coklat sekotak.nek ojek [motor yg ada driver.konsep mcm taxi tp motor bkn kereta.n xpakai meter].macet [jam/jalan raya sesak] ada lori terbalik dekat2 cikuda bapa ojek len dk bgosip.

730 am

sampai a53.g duduk blkg yan.discuss jp ngan yan n zahidah soalan.nita skali.

745 am

stlh pnt bbincang,kami bsembang pula.hehe~

nnz : bila nk start xm ni?

yan : ntah.dh la aq ada paper ptg ni.xbc pa lg.

nnz : p la blk amik.dan ja pon.

yan : xnk ah.

dr : ditunggu lagi ya.ada kecelakaan.jadi lambat.ditunggu aja ya.

dan kami bergosip tntg itu pula.xyah la aq detailkan sbb kl korg xde kt situ korg xkan phm.hehe~

tau x keluasan meja tu kurang dr 1 muka kertas a4?xselesa gl jwb xm td.huhu~

800 am

ali baru sampai.haha~

dan aq teringat aq harus pergi ambil surat pengantar MRP [multiple reentry permit.kn nk blk malaysia,so kn ada benda ni utk masuk balik indonesia nnt] dan surat bebas fiskal [fiscal free.xtau bahasa melayu da apa.kl xdk srt ni kn byr 1juta kot kat airport nnt].so,aq mengajak yan dan berpesan kpd abgD [farid] msg or call kl dh nk start.so,aq dan yan mmulakan perjalanan.srt permohonan MRP n bebas fiskal tu aq dh hntr isnin hr tu.supposedly dh sp.n i need around 5 days nk bt MRP tu plak dkt pjbt imigresen.tp guna agent so,diorg uruskan.pegi check,my letters x siap lagi.huhu~pastu aq n yan amikkan utk kwn2 smua surat diorg sbb ktorg mmg xdk keja.haha~

830 am

zahidah call n ckp xm dh nk start.maka, aq dan yan pon bergegas ke a53.sesampai di sana, examiner tgh distribute answer sheet n question paper.n as i hv feared,kertas soalan x cukup.lupa nk ckp,nm aq still xdak dlm list utk seat xm.n since aq dk 2nd row dr blkg,aq xdpt soalan.ada 7 org xdpt kertas soalan.d same thing over again.n we have to wait.so,tunggulah smntr org len mnjwb soalan.n d bapa said everything will be taken care of.yeah right!

845 am

br dpt kertas soalan.alhamdulillah,byk past year.tp xtau la mrkh akn nek ke x.hopefully nek la.

1030 am

finished my xm.n pegi check balik kt SBK surat tu.kot2 ada.xdak.n ibu tu kata try slasa ni.adoih.xtau la.hrp2 sempat.n im off to run some errands.

end.

theres rumours yg kt we still have to come for judicium 2 wlpn dh dpt excuse blh blk.myb bkn rumours dh kot.im just f****** sick of this faculty.suh org bertanggungjawab n bt keja btul.what d f***** hell are u doing?other than mnyusahkan hdp org?well,x wonder smua org pndg rendah medic indon.i dont know whether thats solely on d academic side or other stuff gets included also.tp what i know is,we may be academically challenged tapi i can say we are tough.toughened by all this bnda merapu yg arggghh~ sometimes i dont even know how i can stand them.maybe because we can do nothing n whats left is just terima apa adanya.which makes us ****** *******.so much with indonesia being a demo-sana sini-cratic country.im just so ****** up!argh~

t8 cr!

p/s: internet pon time ni nk bengong.byq mahai sj.argh~

p/s2:no harry potter for me 29t!argggggghhhhhh~ im sorry adi.TnT

p/s3: ada bombing in jakarta this morning.hmmn~

p/s4: tb2 emo.damn~

old habits die hard…

salam,

*dialog d bwh tdk tepat tp lbh kurang la.mengikut ingatan aq.hehe~*

…

tim : weih,psg webcam,aq nk tgk ang.lm xtgk.

nnz : xmo ah.maluuuuu~ (smbl blushing)

tim : kpala otak ang!

nnz : haha~

tim : tdq sekatil,sbantai.mandi skali.nk segan apanya. cpt la.

tiba2 tim menghilang.katanya terpaksa menguruskan anaknya yg 3 ekor itu.haha~

moral of the story:

dh lama org xkata kat aq KPALA OTAK HANG.rinduuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu siottttttttt.haha~ye ah,kl aq guna depa kata kurang sopan.pompuan lk tu.pdhl aq rs kalo kat kedah itu sm thp mcm fuck u bg org america dan siot bg org kl.ye ke?ntah aq xtau sgt bhs kl.hmmn~d point is itu adlh bahasa gaul kami di utara.ia xkasar.ia mesra.haha~n aq rinduuuuu smua itu.hehe~XD

sains kedah omnigenous kith adhocracy XD

t8 cr!

p/s:multiV yg aq br amk ni sbnqnya da kt 1hr 2 kapsul.tp ni pon aq rs mcm dh di awan-awangan.mungkin sbb kategori body weight aq bkn tergolong dlm body weight dewasa.so kn kurangkan dosage.hehe~

p/s2:currently this quote is stickin in my mind : if it is to be,it is up to me.diubah sdikit.thankz to a new fren,Azriff Azmi.XD

p/s3:esok ada paper HIS.hrp2 senang.hehe~

p/s4:sorry gmbr tu je aq ada.tu pon curi kt fb.haha~

p/s5:aq br sdr kt ats tu skoka.haha~sains kedah omnigenous boniform adhocacy tp xsdp sgt.nk gk gn kith.hehe~

v for vampire rights amendment…

salam,

just finished watching trueblood season1.n being 1 who doesnt enjoy twilight as much as others,trueblood best.hehe~its so complicated n it brings d meaning of racism to another level.plus,bill lg handsome dr edward cullen.hehe~this is the intro song.sgt best oke.u might also wants to hear d studio version.more solid.anyway,enjoy~

nk kn cr 2nd season tp adi kt mcm xdk lg ja.huhu~

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p/s:cta tu byk sex n nude scene.but other than that best!XD

p/s2:i need some fresh idea.come idea come.=)

v for vindication…

salam,

they say that kids say d darnest things.i say,they havent met me yet.i always say d ‘darnest’ things.huhu~i always have problems communicating.annoying,sometimes out of point.a lil bit too push-y maybe?inconciderate of what others might feel or think.but on my defence id say: i just say what i see from my point of view.it might be different from ur view.it might even be wrong.im sorry if i confused u wth d facts or hurt u in any way.but i dont care.u need to hear mine cuz im willing to hear urs.because i celebrate unique-ness.correct me when im wrong cuz i give credits only to whom it belongs.n yeah,i do talk a lot when d matters is within my knowledge.n i do really like brain storming.dats when even if i say d most stupid-est thing, it will still contribute to d discussion in its own freaking way.hehe~

its a cycle:

i speak out.

i feel uncomfortable with the way i expressed it.

nonetheless, its a damn sweet satisfaction knowing i did say what was on my mind.

and,thats just me,being me.XD

t8 cr!

p/s:Cats Do Control Humans, Study Finds.i know for sure its true.haha~somehow,i missed bumble bINg.huhu~dr smalam g.xtau psepa.asek tringat kt bINg ja.huhu~

p/s2:ill be back in malaysia on 25/7.yeay~

p/s3:sorry kl meeting td ter-annoy ssapa ek.huhu~

p/s4:ini adlh post ke 2 pd hr ini.whahahhahaha~

p/s5: ~345~

freezing cold, jatinangor…

salam,

EVENT : REMEDIAL MDE DMS

HARI : SELASA

TARIKH : 14 JULAI 2009

MASA : 730 AM

TEMPAT : ???

i was not enlisted as an examinee walopon dh register n followed all procedure.TnT
so,i went to SBK, asked about my status.its around 712 am.i know i can take the exam because im a registered examinee.cumanya takut ada masaalah dgn SBK la.haish~
nnz : pa,nama saya ga ada ni.gmana?
bapa : masuk aja.nnt namanya ditulis aja di absensi.
nnz : oke.makasih.
so,i followed yan, nas, zahidah, yah ke atas mnuju ke (blok/bangunan) a5  sbb diorg xcheck lg diorg xm kt hall mn.dan kbetulan nas pny nama pon xdk gak.so, saya dan nas bersembang tentang itu kerana smalam fikah, ahli tutorial ktorg gak, xde nm gk sambil membontoti yah, yan dan zahidah. ktorg ms amik result n register remedial hr tu xde dosen wali.adoih~but i did everything accordingly.registered online.submitted  d form.tp ada jgk mslh.dugaan.sesampai di hall xm:
yan : nad, duk sblah kanan.krusi sblh kiri xbest.
nnz : oh oke. (xpnah plak aq amk tau krusi blah mn best n x.hehe~)
nas : xnak ah dk sblh sini byk bdk indon/reguler.
yan : sblh sini pn byk jgk.
nnz : eh,knapa kita kt sini.bkn kita kt a33 ka?
yan : ya ka?a33?ni a bp? a5?
nnz : ye la.ni a53.kita kat a33. (aq xdk tmpt pn sbnqny.sk2 hati nk plh a33.hehe~)
yah,zahidah : eh,aah.jom2.
yan : psal ko ikut je ktorg nek smpai tgkt 3?
nnz : aq ngan nas kn tgh smbg.so, ikut ja korg.hehe~
btuah sungguh smua kanak2 ini.hehe~

722 am

smpai di a33 (which is kat lantai (tingkat/floor) 3 jgk.exercise d pg hr.yeehaa~)

aq nmpk adi n ada seat ksg sblh da.n ada 2 lg seat ksg kt situ.yan ddk blkg aq.yah lak ddk ngan naqi 3.5++ hehe~zahidah sblh yah.nas dh ilang kt row blkg skali tgh menelaah lg.hehe~duduk punya duduk.tb2 examiner suh kuar dulu dr hall.da nk letak kertas.ikut je la.setelah di luar,masing2 sambung menelaah.dan saya memilih utk bersama noriz dan aminah kerana noriz sdg memegang buku soalan yg saya sudah meminta tlg adi simpan di dalam beg galasnya.bijak kn.haha~

750 am

baru masuk blk hall.lm gl dia ssn kertas.tmpt yan, zahidah n yah duduk,row blkg aq xdk kertas soalan.means row tu dikosongkan sbb rapat sgt.n mmg kl nk mniru u dont need any effort.mcm disuap2.tp dlm pd itu aktiviti tsebut bjalan mcm besa ja aq tgk.haish~dh besaq2 pn nk kena ajaq lg ka?dh la lg besaq dr aq ni.huhu~honesty is d best policy.x caya tny honey-senpai yg cumell.termasuk ouran hihgschool jp.hehe~

755 am

xm mula skrg.3 jam 20 minit. (fyi,paper tu 200 soalan objektif.banyak soalan is 1 thing.satu soalan tu dekat 5-10 baris.pning?pusing?abaikan dulu.jwb xm dulu.huhu~)

examiner : yg blum dapat soal di belakang dulu ya.ditunggu soalnya.nanti masanya ditambah sesuai jam mula.

nnz : apekahhhhh? (tapi meneruskan upacara menjawab soalan yg sgt ssh itu.hampeh~whahahhaha~)

punggungku keras berkematu.3jam 20 minit atas krusi ni.bkn takat sakit blkg sgala mcm sakit mai.kl bdn besaq lg la.

POI di sini :

• igt x saya kata nama saya tiada dalam list examinee walpn dh register?disebabkan dlm list utk hall tu just contohnya 50 org,soalan yg disediakan mgkn 55.sdgkan bilangan sebenarnya adalah 70.so,15 org have to wait to seat for their xms.
• ni 2nd day.dikhabarkan 1st day pn dh jd.any improvisation?i guess no.
• apa yg salah di sini???knapa online data x tele dgn data SBK???FK blh tlg jwbkan???

825 am

• baru diorg yg blum dpt soalan dpt soalan.n they seat suka hati diorg n examiner x mrh pon.they seat kt row yg sepatutnya dikosongkan.n berkelompok.which kl korg phm,korg phm.aq xnk elaborate wlpn aq dh mem-fishy-kn statement tsebut.hehe~

xm trus dijalankan.examiner kt dpn.mcm2 terjadi tp tiada pengawasan.so,go figure d ending ur self.

a33 bukan a53

1015 am

i went to SBk again to ask again.sbb i have 3 more papers n nama saya xterlist down.

nnz : pa,nm saya ga ada.utk xm nnt g mn?

bapa : namanya?

nnz : NNZ

bapa : kamu ambil 4 subjek ya?

nnz : ya.nnt g mn?

bapa : nnt listny dibuat kembali yg baru.tp kalo masih ga ada,nnt namanya ditulis di absensi.

nnz : really?

bapa : iya.

nnz : oke.makasih pak.

adi: machonya org amk xm.macho kn?jelez la tu. =P

t8 cr!

p/s: aq pnh kn tunggu paper gk for 1/2 hour.phop kl xslh.last yr.

p/s2:kjadian tersalah soalan juga pernah terjadi.

p/s3: kejadian dh half way jwb xm tb2 kn tukar answer sheet jg pernah terjadi.

p/s4:dms terukkk.huhu~but ill try better for HIS this friday!gogo diego!

p/s5:bkn mksd aq xbesyukur or xberterima kasih.cuma,this is d reality of life here,in fakultas kedokteran unpad.

superfluous anticipation…

salam,

i found u.
it was noon.
n i found u.
d sun shone brightly.
well,it was noon.
rays litting ur smiling face,
angelic.
n i found u.
it was d best damn thing.
yeah,
i found u.

—<3—

i adored u.
it was a crush.
n i adored u.
my world was upside down.
well,it was a crush.
love dawns unto me,
heaven.
n i adored u.
it was d best damn thing.
yeah,
i adored u.

—<3—

i loved u.
it was euphoric.
n i loved u.
i was living a fairy tale.
well,it was euphoric.
its a fantasy,
its real.
n i loved u.
it was d best damn thing.
yeah,
i loved u.

—<3—

it is still d best damn thing.
yeah,
eternally,
i love u.
n yeah,
definitely,
i adore u.

—<3—

but i am still in a journey.
to find u.
to search within u.
n along d way,
i found me.
searching within me,
i found what d best damn thing really is.
yeah,
i found it.
it was u.

t8 cr!

p/s:im sorry.im incapable verbally.n i know how hard it is to read me.im sorry.
p/s2:ni bkn lagu avril lavigne.maupun the fray.sekian.

p/s3:my memory sux big time.sorry.

there are no words left to speak…

salam,

t8 cr!
p/s:i was full of words to jot down just some few minutes ago.but when i clicked d ‘new post’ button, they vanished like thin air.so,im left with a pic which speaks thousands of words.its from ouran high school host club.watched d anime recently.n that part left a mark smwhere within me.

my muse…

salam,

Bellamy believes the September 11 attacks to be an “inside job”, claiming:

“September 11 is clearly an inside job, there’s massive evidence that suggests that it was either allowed to happen or even worse, deliberately made to happen. There was a document called Project For The New American Century which was made by neo-Con writers in the ’90s who supplied most of the agenda that Bush is putting into place now, which clearly says, ‘We need a Pearl Harbor-level of event so we can have an excuse to invade the Middle East.”

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p/s:nk H.A.A.R.P.!!!